03.12.08

i got an email from my friend today, asking if i regretted my decision in coming to Russia. i didn't reply, because i didnt know what to say. there are a lot of 'hmms'- hmms i havewhined continually about... but in fact, the answer is a one syllabled uncomplicated resounding No. i do not. there is such a resurrection in living without embroidery, without the luxuries and comforts and cosmetics at home that just clogg up your breathing space. in living from one day to the next, so you feel more keenly. So you gather up your precious moments of joy and count them out, anticipating and prolonging; so that even a humble unglamourous'social gathering' in some broken down smelly apartment, wearing your dirty pyjamas under unwashed tracksuit bottoms is a night you will never relive again, that you esteem in full gratefullness. because clinging to the moment makes you appreciate it. and this is life! of course i miss home, but that cant prevent me from enjoying here. besides the city is not the vicious snarling dog i have made it out to be. in fact, today on the bus home, one of those siberian looking 'adonises' was checking me out! ;)